currently listening to: the shrine / an argument by fleet foxes

whenever i feel out of control and overwhelmed:

i run into the ocean. i swim, and it all goes away. 

there is nothing more infinite than the ocean.

being surrounded by it reminds me how small my problems are

and how beautiful the world is.

i swear it has healing powers.

best advice.

i believe love exists because i have seen it.
my parents keep this belief strong in me every day.
i don't believe in the fairy tale concept of love though; that idea is foolish.
i do not think love makes you feel warm every day.
it hurts, and it compromises who you are.
i think people cling to this idea because it is something that we have been conditioned to desire beyond any other things.
they chase imaginary constructions of what constitutes love.
flowers and chocolates are nice, but there is no tangible way to prove love.
they hold onto affection and label it love; this is also foolish.
people play with the idea of love and the game of controlling others emotions.
it only engenders jealousy and resentment and it should be avoided, i think.
love should be simple. if you have to wonder for a second if you have it, you don't.
i have no idea if i will experience the love i have witnessed growing up.
i hope i will be lucky enough. not many people are.
if i'm not, that's okay; i have one million other reasons to smile.