currently listening to: acid raindrops by people under the stairs

rainy rainy day.

currently listening to: music by the beautiful girls

"we are friends.

and i do like to pass the day with you in serious and inconsequential chatter.

i wouldn't mind washing up beside you,dusting beside you,

reading the back of the paper while you read the front.

we are friends and i would miss you,

do miss you, and think of you very often."

christene

my pelirrojo. i'm so happy i've gotten to know you this semester. whenever i've gotten sad, whether homesickness or a bed bug panic attack, you've been there to make me laugh and not ask too many questions. you can always make me smile, and you never fail to have a great story to lighten any mood. i like how when you say "i'm not drinking tonight," it really means you're going to drink me under the table and get assaulted by a go-go dancer. he was just jealous because he knew you were going to upstage him anyway... you are incredibly generous with both kindness and material things, always willing to lend a shirt or buy a round. you are beautiful inside and out, i hate to use the cliche, but it applies perfectly to you. you always have so much fun, and i admire what a good attitude you have. i envy your confidence and your dance moves, but i'm hoping to learn both from you this semester and long after. i think you have handled everything lately with maturity that most people our age won't have for a very long time. a three hour menu del dia at juicy avenue with you is the perfect way to spend an afternoon. can't wait to see you and saul tonight, i love you my little bagel!

currently listening to: swim good by frank ocean

every atom in your body came from a star that exploded.

and, the atoms in your left hand probably came from a different star than your right hand. 

it really is the most poetic thing i know about physics: 

you are all stardust.

you couldn't be here if stars hadn't exploded.

because the elements- the carbon, nitrogen, oxygen, iron,

all the things that matter for evolution and for life

weren't created at the beginning of time. 

they were created in the nuclear furnaces of stars

and the only way for them to get into your body

is if those stars were kind enough to explode. 

so, forget Jesus. 

the stars died so that you could be here today.

that which we manifest is before us;

we are the creators of our destiny.

be it through intention or ignorance

our successes and our failures 

have been brought on by none other than ourselves.

so many things.

people and their rituals.

people cling to things so hard sometimes.

there are no ordinary moments.

there is always something going on.

currently listening to: gucci gucci by kreayshawn

i feel incredibly blessed.

i know that i am.

i am not taking a single thing for granted.

but i am a little reminiscent.

a little sick, for this lack of the sea and the sand.

being landlocked takes its toll.

the next time i feel the ocean on my toes

will be a very beautiful and freeing moment.

for whatever we lose (like a you or a me)

it's always ourselves we find in the sea.

listen: there's a hell of a good universe next door. let's go.

i love spain

i love germany

up next: portugal

morocco

amsterdam

ireland

florence

truly blessed.